How can I lose so much time, when I'm constantly moving? I've had all this time to simply perform one grisly task at hand, and yet it feels so complicated. I've seen people I know are guilty, yet they end up walking free. I've seen people whom I've felt are good, and yet they must suffer. Then there are those who I can't even see, and those who can I feel a mile away.
I feel like things are falling apart, my rotten, festering shamble of a life is withering away, while you readers tell me I'm doing wrong, and I see tortured visions of a slight woman crying out towards me.
I've got to move.
Just just days ago
I took someone
I don't know if he was bad
but I had to ward it off
shadow was too close
when I kill it, it'll all work, hope he was bad
yes he was bad
I can see it
thank the gods, i know he was bad, he was bad
Can't break free. It's
Focus, focus...have to breathe, have to survive a little longer. Almost done, almost done.
nowhere near done.
Okay, I'll talk, I'll talk to you about what just happened. I ended up in Boston, I think.
Some college at night. I can't remember it and
fukkkhrtsss frrezzzeengggg f
its going to kill me my shadow it's too close
can't move, can't leave
yess a college at night
Someone surrendered to me there
at night. Yes, I remember.
There was a hill, a monument. Flowers, metal, and stone, a stone pillar
and near the night lights was a man
a broken man.
Actually two broken men.
Feeling better, yes, this is good.
The other one sat in the shadow of the monument's lights, his head forward. I could feel his weariness, his arms wrapped about a leg, as if to gently console himself.
But that wasn't why he was here.
I watched him for a while. I waited for her. For Rika. She had been following me on and off for some time.
So when I got a message that someone wanted me to take their life, as a mercy, as a chance for hope, I was suspicious.
He didn't cry, he didn't do more than sullenly rue his fate for the time I watched. I felt confident enough to risk closure, even as I fingered my taser, just in case.
He wore a set of sunglasses, that reminded me of Dave's brother in Homestuck...heh. I loved that comic. They were all angular, triangles really. I got no clue how he could wear em. and he wore a tattered cloak.
He was not subtle about his appearance, as he exuded a pathetic nature.
I walked up to him, guardedly, my hands in my hoodie pouch.
He didn't hear me approach, I would've expected at least for him to raise his head.
Me>>> .... Slice?
He nodded softly, his chin up against his knee.
And then he looked up at me.
In the faint reflection of the light off his features, I saw his look of uncertainty, but then soon after he almost seemed to bask in my presence.
The serial killer's presence.
Slice looked up at me, as if I were Jesus holding a giant novelty check, just for him. His hands went to his mouth, in some sort of hushed awe.
Then he whispered.
Slice>>> zero...you came.
I looked him over, trying to understand this fascination he displayed. I saw a man who had lost everything, and then seeing the answer to all his issues appear before him.
And as always, I have no answers. I had none for Amelia, I had none for Nessa, none for Kelly, none for Dean...
No answers except to soldier on, and do what I do.
I sighed softly as I leaned up against one of the benches.
Me>>> Figured it had to be you.
I glanced over his costume.
Me>>> What is it, about Runners and our want to wear costumes? Our goal is anonymity, isn't it?
I continued before he could explain.
Me>>> I already know why, but...it's amusing to ponder, isn't it?
Identity, it's always Identity.
Cling to it, write it on your arm if you must.
Do not forget.
He nodded ruefully, as he gestured to himself, and his cape.
Slice>>> This...is the only thing really keeping me together right now, I think.
He half stepped towards me, I could tell he meant no harm.
Slice>>> You were...are my hero, you know. I believe in you.
Then he looked aside, as if measuring his own shadow, his own issues.
Slice>>> It's silly now, I guess. I'm glad it's going to be you, zero. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
Two men, resigned to their fates.
Two men, in fucking costumes, both with the shit kicked out of them, running from terror.
We were children afraid of the dark.
We all are.
And I laughed.
Me>>> Heh...'Hero'. I wanted that once. Actually, I felt like I was a 'Warrior' once. That's what my high school team was...the 'Warriors'.
I couldn't help wonder, as I saw his halfhearted smile, what led him here.
Me>>> Why do you want this? I mean, I can see you're corrupted, that you're in pain, but what made you decide to just offer up?
He shook his head, running a hand through his hair.
Slice>>> Everyone I love is dead.
His voice gave out, feeble even at the start.
Slice>>> My brother. Everyone's dead because of me. I just can't keep this up.
I watched him shiver softly as the night air caught up with us. I'm sure the cold wasn't what made him tremble, his battered form only partially visible in the shadows.
And then I saw resolve.
Slice>>> I believe in you. If you need our bones for something, well...death at your hands. At the hands of my hero...
He spoke now with grim conviction.
Slice>>> Being useful. That's better than running alone, or ending up with him.
This poor soul was at the end of his rope.
We both were. I couldn't help but see ourselves in reversed roles. Wouldn't I want death at the hands of someone who pr
no stay stay way
ive got to get
Slice kept seeing me as a hero
and i'm so fucked up
Me>>> Slice...I'm probably just as messed up as you, really. That doesn't make me a hero. Half the time I can't even remember where I'm going.
I remember scratching at the new scars upon my head. Thanks, again Arkady.
Me>>> Sometimes I forget my name.
Really, thanks Arkady.
Me>>> and I'm constantly being chased by some unknown FUCK...that's just as bad as the other one.
The least I could do is shoot straight with him, he seemed to deserve it.
Me>>> But you man...You know what you can do to help. To save us. You're a good man, Slice.
He nodded gravely, tears behind his shades, as he started to smile.
Me>>> You chose to put the world before your own needs. You have my thanks, I'll make you proud.
I stuck out my gloved hand for him, and he eagerly took my hand, wincing from some burn on his arm.
Slice>>> I believe in you, zero. I
Another one fell to the taser.
By the way, my fears of tasing myself, unfounded. Most of em have a rubber grip now, helps impede that. I wear the gloves anyway. Just in case.
Me>>> Goodbye Slice. It's as painless as I can make it.
After I was done with my chore, I threw up in the flowers.
Then I crossed his arms, as best I could, and let him lay properly, with his tattered cloak covering him.
So I'm closer now.
so much closer
but I can't go any further today.
Because Rika handcuffed me to a boiler yesterday
and my shadow is going to kill me now.